Alrighty, I’ve been avoiding writing. Which, I’ve come to realize, is super lazy on my part. So, this post is going to read a bit like my Random Saturday Musings.
-My last post was my 100th post since I started writing this blog! It kind of blows my mind that I’ve reached this many posts, and that people I’ve never met have actually read a majority of my posts. I’m so fascinated by the way that the internet connects people all over the world.
-I’ve got 10 (more like 9, now) days left here in ND. I really should probably start packing. On the bright side, I didn’t bring that much with me, so I don’t have as much stuff to pack. I’m also really struggling with the fact that I have to say “good-bye” to some incredibly amazing people. I feel like I’ve spent most of my life saying “good-bye,” and it just doesn’t get any easier.
-I’ve been filling out quite the pile of job applications. So far, I do have a few job possibilities. I’ve had a few people wanting to set up interviews, but don’t want to wait the week and a half for me to get home to do the interview. That’s a bit frustrating. However, almost all of them have told me to give them a call when I get home; so, not a complete loss.
-I had an interesting realization yesterday. I suddenly found that I don’t care what other people think about me. It was an incredibly random realization. I’ve spent my whole life trying to please everyone and be what everyone wants me to be. That’s a very exhausting existence. I also think that trying to keep everyone happy contributes a great deal to struggling to accept and love myself. It’s nobody’s fault that I feel like this. I just hate it when people aren’t happy, and I have single-handedly tried to make everything better for everybody. I’ve known in my head for a long time that this is a pretty impossible task, but it’s only just now actually sinking in to my heart. I’m still me, I’m just no longer going to base how I am on whether it makes other people happy.
-My NaNo novel turned into a real tragedy. By 11 p.m. on 11/29 I had written a little over 37,000 words. My computer insisted it needed to do a restart, and so I made sure it was saved and backed up, and I let my computer do it’s thing. When I opened up the file, I showed that I only had 22,269 words. You know that scene in Little Women where Jo discovers that her novel is being thrown in the fire by Amy? That’s exactly how I felt. Thousands of words had disappeared. People smarter than me with computers gave me advice on locating my missing words, but it was all to no avail. Those words were just gone. No explanation. So, I didn’t make the 50,000 word goal. I did, however, write a lot. I wrote more than I’ve ever written in my entire life on one subject. Plus, I have enough of my first draft left, I’ve been able to start work on my second draft. I’m super excited about this novel, and I can’t wait to put it out there for the world to read!
-Exciting news on the weight loss front. I weighed myself yesterday, and found that I’ve only got 119 lbs. to go! This means that since I started sharing with ya’ll that I was working on losing, I’ve lost 14 lbs. in 13 weeks. I think that’s pretty great! I can definitely tell that my clothes are fitting better. I’m also not constantly feeling hungry (which is a new, unique experience). I think this is mainly due to the diabetes meds, but I’m not complaining.
-I’m very excited to get back to working with the puppet team. I’m super pumped, because we’ve been given the necessary items to be able to travel and do performances. I can’t wait to see where we’re going to get to go and minister.
-Since this blog was initially conceived with the idea of keeping people at home up to date with my life here in ND, the blog’s mission is going to get tweaked a bit since I’m moving back to NE. I’m definitely going to continue writing it, but I’m also going to share some of my photography (I love to pretend that I’m good and force my photos on anyone willing to look at them), and I’m toying with the idea of doing some vlogs.