All posts for the month October, 2012

NaNoWriMo Eve

Published October 31, 2012 by Malia

While tonight is Halloween for most people, for me tonight is the night before NaNoWriMo begins.  In case you’ve not heard of it, NaNoWriMo is the name for the event that takes place all November, and the goal is to write a 50,000 word story.  I tried it a few years ago, but since I started in the middle of the month, I quickly got discouraged, and didn’t end up finishing.  This year, however, I’ve decided to give it another go.

I’ve got absolutely no idea what I’m going to write about.  I’ve been thinking about it over the last week, and I have absolutely no idea.  So, I’m going to just leap in, with no idea.  I’m just going to write and see where the words take me.


The Empire and the Mouse

Published October 30, 2012 by Malia

So, as I’m sure many of you know, Disney bought Lucasfilm.  Disney now owns the rights to Star Wars and Indiana Jones.  They also now own ILM & Skywalker Sound.  In the announcement, they stated that Star Wars Episode VII will be released in 2015 (and VII & IX in the years that follow), and there will be more feature films and tv projects in the future.

I have mixed feelings about this.

It’ll be interesting to see what the Star Wars universe ends up looking like in the hands of new people.  Lucas has spent decades trying to perfect his vision of the universe.  Maybe someone else can make it exist the way he wants.

Probably my biggest feeling of uneasiness about this whole thing is the thought that there might be a reboot of both Star Wars Indiana Jones.  They can redo Episodes 1-3 of Star Wars and it wouldn’t really bother me, but I don’t want to see someone else playing Han Solo or Indiana Jones (Jr. or Sr.).

Overall, it will be interesting to see what becomes of Lucasfilm.

Now, I’m not ignoring what’s going on with the giant storm on the East Coast.  It’s devastating.  The images I’ve been seeing are heartbreaking.  I’m thankful that those I know who have been in the middle of this storm seem to be okay.  My heart goes out to the families who’ve lost members and homes.

Random Saturday Musings

Published October 28, 2012 by Malia

-I love when I watch a movie that I haven’t watched in years and see that it’s still just as awesome as I remember it being.

-Sometimes it really kills me how divided I feel.  I love & miss my family and friends at home, but if I weren’t here I’d feel the same about the people here.

-I feel confused about the iPad mini.  How is this any different than an iPod touch?  Much as I love my computer and iPod, it disturbs me that now marketing strategies seem to be, “Look, it’s a size we’ve kinda sorta, but not really offered before!  Aren’t we amazing?  Isn’t it great you’ll be willing to pay a couple of car &/or mortgage payments to own this?”

-I’m starting to think it’s a good thing for me not to watch Husker games.  They win when I don’t watch.  Because, of course, the world revolves around me.

-I miss my furry babies.  I know I’m going to get home for Thanksgiving and Howie will completely and totally ignore me until it’s time for me to leave, and I don’t care.  I miss his fuzzy orange face!  I miss my Gracie, too.  I miss watching her try to flirt with Sam & Dean whenever Supernatural is on.

-Aunty Ellen, if you’re reading this, Happy Birthday!  I’ll call you later today (cause I’m pretty sure 4 a.m. wouldn’t be a good time to call).  I’m so blessed to have you for an aunt, and I admire you so much.  I hope you know how much you mean to me, and how truly amazing I think you are!  I love you so much!

-I’m so thankful that my family doesn’t badger me about “When are you going to get married,” or “When are you going to have kids.”  It’s hard enough when no one shows any romantic interest, and knowing there’s a 98% chance of no babies in my future.  I’m just so unbelievably thankful this isn’t a standard I’m held up to.  Instead, I’m allowed to chase my dreams, no matter how silly and foolish other people might find them.Dear Family, you are so amazing and I’d be such a bigger mess without you.

-I’m going to be 28 in 27 days.  How insane is that?  I don’t feel like I’m going to be 28.  I feel like 15 or 16.  The only times I feel old is when I’m around kids who are amazed by the fact that I remember seeing certain films (Land Before Time, Beauty & The Beast, & The Lion King to name a few) the first time they were in the theater.

-Is it weird to say that just seeing my severely beat up copy of Fellowship of the Ring is comforting to me?  I can’t explain it.  I have no idea how many times I’ve read LOTR , I lost count years ago.  Actually, I never kept count.  I just would read the series, and as soon as I finished Return of the King I’d cycle right back into Fellowship.  

-It really bothers me when I see commercials for kid computers and the kids are learning to read and write on the tablet.  I think what truly worries/frustrates/irritates me, is that usually you don’t see the parent until the end of the commercial and inevitably they’re either peeking around a corner or passing through the room where the child is.  Computers shouldn’t be teaching the children!  Parents need to be whipping out the good, old McGuffey Reader and teaching the child.  Reading is not a computer game.  There’s a huge difference between teaching the kid how to recognize and pronounce a word, and teaching a child to do those things and love the words.  Computers don’t love.  They’re a machine.  Words are so important.  Books are important.  I feel like whole generations of children are being denied the pleasure of being friends with words, and that saddens me so much.  Computers are great, and fun, but there are some things that they shouldn’t solely be relied on to do.

Friday Night Questions

Published October 27, 2012 by Malia

-Isn’t it amazing watching Lord of the Rings with someone who loves it just as much as you do?

-What’s up with the scene in The Hobbit trailer where Galadriel is tucking a strand of Gandalf’s hair behind his ear?

-Wouldn’t Orlando Bloom make a fantastic Errol Flynn?

-Wouldn’t people be horrified if they read the original versions of some of their favorite fairy tales?

-I think I asked this before, but it bugs me: Why is there such a push to make Tinkerbell seem like a nice fairy?  Why can’t they leave her as the nasty bit of work she actually is?

-In fact, why do people think fairies are nice?

-Who else is excited that The Hobbit is almost here?

Those were the days, my friends…

Published October 25, 2012 by Malia

I was born in the mid-80’s, but I don’t remember much about them beyond:




True story, I honestly believed the Noid was real.  When my grandparents would come visit my grandma would tell me to call to order pizza, and apparently I would use my toy telephone and “call” Domino’s.  According to my mom, the conversation would go, “Hello?  Noid?  Bring pizza!”  While I made my “call” someone else would actually call Domino’s.  Thus, the belief in the Noid was firmly cemented in my brain, until we moved to small town Illinois when I was four, and there was no Domino’s; just a Dairy Dipper.


The time I could have gotten crushed by a refrigerator.  Fortunately, it just wasn’t my time yet.

However, while I may not have been super aware of pop-culture, or really any culture, in the 80’s, I do remember the 90’s.  Here’s just a few things I remember…


First boy band I was aware of:

I don’t remember actually hearing any of their music, but I do remember going over to my friend Krissy’s house, and she had their poster, album, and I’m thinking she had their dolls.  (Keep in mind, this happened 20 years ago, so I could totally be misremembering the dolls).


Nylon Windsuits:

I had a couple different ones of these.  They were great, and pretty comfortable.



I really miss Surge.  It was a great soda!  About the only time I ever got to have it was at camp.  I don’t remember it making me super-hyper, but then again caffeine usually works opposite the way it’s supposed to on me.


The Best Computer Game:

Okay, in light of the games available now, this probably doesn’t look that fun, but back in elementary school playing this on the Apple 2 was so much fun!  This was before the internet was widely available.




Great PBS kid’s shows:



When I was 9 and trying to die from pneumonia (I wish I was making that up, I actually almost died), I remember one night my dad was watching me, and he willingly played this game with me.  My dad rocks!


The Best Playground Equipment

At some point, while I was growing up, these were just some of the pieces of playground equipment that were deemed dangerous and removed from playgrounds.


Great Comic Strips:

Both of these strips came to an end in the mid-90’s.  They were both great strips.


The show that still gives me the creeps:


There’s plenty of other things I remember, but I’ll end this post with this:

As already mentioned, my dad’s pretty awesome.  This Beanie, Prickles the Hedgehog, got released a few days before Valentine’s Day.  To surprise me, my dad stood in line for hours to get this Beanie, and then he and mom gave it to me for Vanetine’s.  Probably the best Valentine’s gift I’ve ever received.


Dear Blog,

Published October 25, 2012 by Malia

I’ve been neglecting you.  I’m sorry.  I’ve been so wrapped up in my thoughts and emotions and general madness that is my life, I’ve not spent any time working on you.  This isn’t really fair to you.

The truth is, I think I’ve been hiding from you.  I didn’t want you to see how much I’ve been struggling or how sad I’ve felt.  I didn’t want you to be disappointed in me.  It’s silly, though.  You know, as well as I do, that life’s not fair, and sometimes it seems easier to just hide.

So, I’m back.  Good, bad, or downright ugly, daily posts are coming back.  How else will you know what’s going on with me, my weight, and the things I’m so easily entertained by?

Until tomorrow…or later today…whichever comes first…


Happiness is…

Published October 22, 2012 by Malia

This afternoon I got a call, and during the conversation I was asked, “How would you like to be able to go home for Thanksgiving?”  All I could do in response was cry and mumble through my tears, “I’d…really *sniff*…likethat.”

In less than a month I’ll be home.

Things have been so overwhelming these last few weeks, just knowing that I’ll get to be home for Thanksgiving and my birthday suddenly made things seem a little less overwhelming.  I just gotta get through the next 29 days.

I can do this.

Random Saturday Musings

Published October 20, 2012 by Malia

-Saw The Blair Witch Project for the first time tonight.  Gotta say, A. they had no clue what direction south is, and B. I hated the fact that I disliked the characters so much I didn’t care if something bad happened to them.  Interesting film, though.  I remember when it first came out, and everyone thought it was actual footage of a real tragedy.  And, now, I feel old.

-I really enjoy making fun things on my loom.  It’s very therapeutic.

-I’ve really been struggling, emotionally, with this whole chronic disease diagnosis.  I feel like as soon as I start wrapping my head around it and accepting it, I immediately head back to being angry or sad.  The other night, I was laying in bed, and all I could think of is how much it must suck for those people who get diagnosed with something really severe, like cancer.  I can’t even begin to imagine what hell their emotions play on them.  In some ways, I feel that I’m supposed to be learning empathy through this.  I tend to be really guarded, and even when I feel bad for someone and what their going through (especially with disease) I hold back from being there for them.  I hope I’m not driving people crazy with my constant writing on here about this whole diabetes thing.  I know I’ve been using my entries to process the emotional turmoil I’m going through.  Honestly, it’s scary.  It’s really scary.  I had no idea what people really go through.  My heart truly goes out to people who have it way worse.  I feel like I barely qualify to be saying, “I’ve got a chronic disease.”

Mothman Prophecies has got to be one of my all time favorite movies.  It’s so freaky, and it’s almost all mental.  It doesn’t rely on gore, it relies mostly on the unseen.  Is there really anything scarier than what our own imaginations come up with?