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It’s been a long weird decade

Published December 31, 2019 by ia84

12/31/09. If you had asked me what my life would look like ten years in the future, I would’ve given you an answer that bears little resemblance to what actually happened.

How has it turned out? Let me see…

-I’ve lived in two different states.

-I’ve worked in two different medical labs.

-I got married.

-I discovered that I’m actually a dog person (I still like cats, but dogs are my favorite).

-I’ve discovered a genuine love of crafting.

-I’ve had two surgeries.

-I’ve had miscarriages.

-I’ve lost the best grandparents in the world.

-I’ve experienced evolution of relationships with both family and friends.

-I’ve learned to think for myself.

-I’ve learned hard truths about myself.

-I’ve been given gifts I never expected that have quite literally changed my life and given me back hope that I lost long ago.

Life has mountains and valleys. The last decade was filled with mostly valley, and as much as it hurt, as much as it tried to destroy me, I’m ending the decade able to say, “I’m still here.” I can’t say I’m ending the decade a better person, but I’m definitely ending it more self-aware and in touch with the world around me.

So, what about the next ten years? Honestly, I don’t know what life will look like a decade from now. If God gives me another ten years (which I really pray He does), I know that I don’t want to waste them. I don’t want to reach 12/31/29 and find that I’ve accomplished nothing. I do know that for the first time in my life I have a dream of something that I want to do, that’s not just a pipe dream (I know I’m being a bit vague, and I intend to flesh this out in upcoming posts). I know that I have certain talents, and I’ve got a calling on my heart to use those talents, and to give. I know what gives me joy, and what my purpose is. Now the trick is to dive in and not give into my fear of failure.

I survived the decade.

I want to thrive in the next.

A Bad Day To Be Brain Dead

Published March 19, 2014 by ia84

Today, I was really tired.  I’ve been on this kick where I’ve been waking up earlier and earlier without the aid of an alarm clock.  It’s by far, one of the strangest things that’s ever happened to me.  Anyway, last night, I didn’t get to bed until the very wee hours of the morning, and I ended up waking up about four hours after I hit the hay.  Which wasn’t exactly the plan.  It also didn’t help that I had a full day of work ahead of me, and a 401K meeting.

This is the first time in my life that I’ve not only been eligible for a 401K, but also making enough that I can both pay my bills and invest some money.  I’m pretty excited about this.  However, the hour and a half meeting I attended was mentally painful.  And kind of confusing.  And generally a bad thing to be attending when only about half awake.

The longer the meeting went on, the more muddled my brain got.  Basically, I know I got handed a pile of paperwork, and that it should make a lot more sense than it does.  Also, I learned that at my age I’m apparently supposed to be aggressive in my investing, or else I’ll get old and be poor.  Honestly, it was all I could do to follow which page we were on in which set of papers out of the pile.

Thankfully, I’ve got until Monday to figure out how I’m going to plan for the future.  Hopefully, I’ll get some sleep between now and then.

Diagnosis: Employed

Published January 3, 2013 by ia84

The rumors are true.  I finally have a job.  Not just any job, a full time job at a medical lab.  Next to my dream of being paid to travel all over the world and get paid for it, this is pretty much my dream job.  I cried when I got the official “We’d like to offer you the job” call.  This really is such a weight off my mind.  Knowing that I’m going to be able to pay my bills and face the future with a little more hope just makes me all sorts of happy!

And now, here’s a random picture of Aragorn preparing to do battle against my new (and possibly favorite) mug:

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