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It’s been a long weird decade

Published December 31, 2019 by ia84

12/31/09. If you had asked me what my life would look like ten years in the future, I would’ve given you an answer that bears little resemblance to what actually happened.

How has it turned out? Let me see…

-I’ve lived in two different states.

-I’ve worked in two different medical labs.

-I got married.

-I discovered that I’m actually a dog person (I still like cats, but dogs are my favorite).

-I’ve discovered a genuine love of crafting.

-I’ve had two surgeries.

-I’ve had miscarriages.

-I’ve lost the best grandparents in the world.

-I’ve experienced evolution of relationships with both family and friends.

-I’ve learned to think for myself.

-I’ve learned hard truths about myself.

-I’ve been given gifts I never expected that have quite literally changed my life and given me back hope that I lost long ago.

Life has mountains and valleys. The last decade was filled with mostly valley, and as much as it hurt, as much as it tried to destroy me, I’m ending the decade able to say, “I’m still here.” I can’t say I’m ending the decade a better person, but I’m definitely ending it more self-aware and in touch with the world around me.

So, what about the next ten years? Honestly, I don’t know what life will look like a decade from now. If God gives me another ten years (which I really pray He does), I know that I don’t want to waste them. I don’t want to reach 12/31/29 and find that I’ve accomplished nothing. I do know that for the first time in my life I have a dream of something that I want to do, that’s not just a pipe dream (I know I’m being a bit vague, and I intend to flesh this out in upcoming posts). I know that I have certain talents, and I’ve got a calling on my heart to use those talents, and to give. I know what gives me joy, and what my purpose is. Now the trick is to dive in and not give into my fear of failure.

I survived the decade.

I want to thrive in the next.

Life is but a dream

Published January 10, 2014 by ia84

I had some really weird dreams last night.

Dream #1

First, I got a call from one of my grandmothers, and she asked me, “Did your parents move to Omaha?”

Me: Yeah, several years ago.  (Thinking it’s weird because she was one of the first people to know they were moving to Omaha.)

Grandma: Figures I would be the last to know.

Me: Oooookay….Um…I’ll have dad call you back.

Dream #2

I was in an office building.  The doors at the end of the hall opened, and in ran a herd of baby pandas (There were at least 30).  There were two women herding them, and I was soon surrounded by this moving sea of baby pandas.  I picked one up and handed my iPod to one of the women asking if she would take my picture.  She took a couple pictures, and then I had to leave and get on a bus.  When I got on the bus, I took out my iPod to look at the pictures, and found that the woman hadn’t switched the camera view.  So, I had pictures of her from neck down, but no pictures of me with the pandas.

Then I woke up.

And now I want to cuddle a baby panda.