Does anyone know?
I used to be mildly successful at this, and tonight I realized that I’ve gotten really rusty. It doesn’t help that I spend most of my waking hours focused on things that come out of the body and what kinds of tests can be performed on them. Plus, most of the things I’d want to talk about are censored by HIPAA.
The thing is, I want to be able to talk to people and not come off sounding obsessed with myself.
So, I guess it’s back to Social Skills 101 for me. Because, while it’s fun to be weird and quirky; it’s also important to be able to converse with normal human adults about things that you don’t need to see a doctor for.
I’m kind of a pessimist. I don’t mean to be; I’ve seen how bad things can go so many times I automatically go into glass half empty mode. This is why I was surprised at myself today. Today, I inadvertently was an optimist.
I think I started to realize that something was different shortly before I headed to work. I had a rough night and didn’t sleep well, so I was really tired this morning, and normally I would’ve been dreading going to work. However, I found myself not dreading work. In fact, I was excited to get there. I was really hoping that after a very slow start to the semester there would be lots more work for me to do. Not only was there loads more work to do, I didn’t have enough time to get it all taken care of.
Then, tonight I was fighting the fact that I needed to work out. I skipped last night (I’m thinking this might be why I didn’t sleep well), and all of a sudden, my brain shouted at me, “There are tons of people on this planet that wish their legs worked. Now, get your butt up and walk!” and I did!
My most surprisingly optimistic moment of the day came when I finally had a conversation with someone that I’d been dreading. (I was dreading the conversation, not the person.) I’d been avoiding this conversation for the better part of a week. Not only, did it go amazingly well, but good things came from it that I didn’t even expect.
I’m not sure that I’m going to become an optimist over night, but this is a small step in that direction.