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Convincing you to read my next book with the first chapter!

Published February 10, 2026 by Malia

The book comes out on 02/17/2026, but I thought it’d be fun to release the first chapter a week early. Before we get to the chapter, here’s a few details about the book. And just to be clear, no AI was used in the making of this book, or its art. All of this was done by humans (myself and my cover artist, Carter Johnson).

Title: The Future is Bright

Genre: Cozy Post-Apocalyptic Romance (I’m not sure it’s an actual genre, but it should be.)

Synopsis:

The funny thing about death is that life keeps going…whether you want it to or not.

Selena has had her fill of loss. She keeps everyone at arm’s length, determined to survive without getting attached. Quill, the Facility’s manager, has somehow managed to retain his cheery optimism, but he’s had enough heartbreak for one lifetime.

A single impulsive lie brings them together, and leads to a fake relationship that seems like the perfect solution to unwanted attention. No expectations. No real feelings. Just a convenient fiction.

Until it isn’t.

Selena and Quill must navigate grief, healing, and the terrifying possibility of hope. This is a cozy post-apocalyptic slow-burn romance about love after loss, finding community, and choosing to embrace life after the worst has happened.

And now…without further ado…

Chapter One

March 19, 2020

The thing she’d always remember was just how quiet it was when the world ended.

It was disbelief.

It was horror.

It was chilling.

She’d never experienced a quiet like it before, and she never would again.

Dr. Stevens, the Facility manager, had summoned both the entire Security and Medical staff to his office that morning. Walking in was when Selena first noticed the quiet. They all knew something was wrong. They all suspected what it was.

The quiet grew as the rest of the residents were informed. It grew and grew until it couldn’t grow anymore, and it burst like a bubble.

“It’s a mistake.”

“Are you sure?”

“This isn’t happening!”

“This isn’t real.”

Shock and disbelief were echoed by every single person. No one wanted to believe the worst had truly happened.

The rest of the day was a blur. Later, when she looked back, all she had were little flashes of images. Memories of half-heard sentences. She wasn’t a grief counselor, but that day she was.

At the end of the day, when half the residents had been sedated and the other half were still in denial, she left the clinic ready to collapse into bed. Her feet, however, had other ideas.

There was a long, rocky path that connected the Facility to the main door higher up on the mountain. Selena wearily dragged her body up that path. Even though she knew what awaited her at the end, she still needed to see it.

Only one month earlier, she’d walked through the massive steel door into the cavernous chamber the path eventually opened into. How different that day had been. No one, including Selena, had believed they’d actually get stuck here. All around her people had talked and joked, and there had been a lightness in the atmosphere that was now long gone.

The door was shut.

Dr. Stevens had said it was sealed. She’d had no reason to doubt him, but until the moment she saw it for herself, there had been the tiniest speck of hope that maybe it was all a mistake. Maybe it was just a bad dream.

It wasn’t.

She went straight to it and cautiously touched the smooth silver surface. It was cold against her fingertips. She slid down to the floor and rested the side of her head against the hard, dull metal.

There was no home for any of them to go back to. Even though she felt like she had less to lose than the other residents, what she had lost was hard to wrap her head around. Everything and everyone she knew and loved was gone. The sheer scope, the immense magnitude, of what had been lost was impossible to fully comprehend.

She closed her eyes and pictured a bright summer day, conjuring up the warmth of a sunbeam and the smell of freshly mown grass. Day shifted to night in her mind, and her thoughts were filled with a pitch-black sky polka-dotted with countless points of white light.

Her mind summoned up the image of a grave without a headstone. Her dad had never liked his first name. She’d been insistent the name be written the way he preferred, but the marker hadn’t been placed before she left for the Facility. What if the military had gotten it wrong? Just ignored her request and did it the way it appeared on every piece of identification the man had? She’d never be able to get it fixed.

What did it matter? No one was ever going to see it. The absurdity of it made her begin to giggle.

Her giggles grew and grew until they morphed into wild, hysterical laughter. It bounced off the rocky walls surrounding her, making it sound like multiple Selenas were there, laughing like a pack of hyenas. She couldn’t stop. She tried and failed multiple times. It became more and more unhinged. Without warning, it transformed into great, choking sobs. They wracked her body, and she wrapped her arms around herself tightly in a futile effort to get them to stop.

Hot tears streamed down her face, and she gagged on phlegm. Her stomach tossed and rolled, and the inside of her mouth felt strange. With a jolt, she realized what was about to happen and just barely managed to get to her knees before she vomited bile onto the floor, forming a yellow-green puddle. She’d barely eaten over the past two months, so there wasn’t much of anything else inside to lose. Even when she ran out of bile, she continued to heave for several seconds. Once it ended, she crumpled against the door, hugging herself again. Her abdominal muscles ached, her throat burned, and the tears continued to fall. With great effort, she lifted one hand and used the neckline of her scrub top to wipe her mouth.

“Dr. Fletcher?”

She shrieked and slapped a hand over her mouth as she looked around frantically. Her eyes lit on the intruder and she calmed, but only slightly. Dr. Stevens stood a few feet away, worry obvious on his kind face. She tried to get to her feet, but her body was too wiped to cooperate. Hoarsely, she said, “I’m sorry.”

He crouched down, studying her, and his concern seemed to grow as he asked, “Do you need me to get you some help?”

She shook her head. “No…no, I’m…I’m fine.”

He glanced at her mess and back to her. “Really?”

“I’m as fine as I can be,” she replied, her voice weaker than she wanted.

“You know it’s okay if you’re not, Dr. Fletcher—”

“Please don’t,” she interrupted.

He tilted his head, looking uncertain. “Don’t what?”

Her bottom lip trembled, and she hoped she wasn’t about to have another round of heavy crying. “I can’t…can’t be Dr. Fletcher right now. I’ve been her all…all day, and I can’t…Just call me Selena.”

“Okay, Selena.”

She wet her lips. “Thanks, Dr. Stevens.”

“It’s Quill,” he told her as he stood. He started to walk away and ordered, “Stay there, I’ll be back.”

She watched him disappear into a little alcove she hadn’t noticed before. There was the sound of running water and then he reappeared with a damp towel. At first, her brain was too sluggish to realize why he had it. It was only when he knelt next to her vomitus that she understood. Horrified, she tried to move and said, “Here, I’ll…”

He started wiping up the mess and told her, “It’s okay. I’ve got it.”

Her body still had no interest in cooperating, and she tried not to panic as she said, “Please, I’ll take care of it. You don’t need to.”

He glanced at her and gently said, “Selena, I’ve got it. I don’t mind doing this. It’s okay to let someone help you.”

A couple seconds later, he stood, the befouled towel in his hand, the mess on the floor gone. He returned to where he’d gotten the towel from, and she heard the water turn on again. Soon he reappeared, sans towel, and took a seat a few feet from her. “How are you feeling?”

“Tired,” she said.

He nodded. “I’m not surprised. You did really good today. I know you had your hands full. I’m grateful for you and everyone in the clinic keeping calm.”

She was taken aback by the words of praise. People didn’t tend to talk to her that way. They seemed to assume she’d be helpful. They expected it. Quietly, she replied, “Thanks. You…you did good too. Things could’ve gone so much worse, but you handled it so well”

“Thank you,” he replied. A moment later, he added, “Theo said things are going to be rough for the next few days.”

Theo was the other doctor in the clinic and had spent the last decade and a half working in emergency medicine. She grimaced. “He’s not wrong, although it’s going to be longer than a few days. Easily weeks or months. Possibly longer. Grief is…it’s unpredictable.”

“There’s five stages, right?”

“Yeah, but don’t expect anyone here to experience those stages in any sort of order that makes sense. It’s not a one-and-done thing either. Just because you’ve gone through one of the stages doesn’t mean you won’t go through it multiple times. It’s not a neat little packaged thing. It’s messy and awful.”

“Sounds like you’re speaking from experience.”

“You could say that.” Sighing heavily, she added, “I honestly don’t know how bad it’s going to get. There’s no way to prepare for this level of catastrophic loss or know exactly what to expect. People are going to act irrationally, and we’re all going to need a lot of grace. It’ll get worse before it gets better.”

“I’ll remember that,” he told her earnestly.

They sat in the quiet for several seconds. Something suddenly occurred to her and she asked, “Wait…why are you up here?”

“That’s what I should be asking you,” he said, giving her a very pointed look.

“Honestly, I…I don’t know. I didn’t…I didn’t plan to come up here. I left the clinic and somehow I ended up here, instead of in bed.”

“I see.”

Her eyes dropped to the floor. “How much trouble am I in?”

“Trouble?”

She swallowed, trying to dislodge the lump that wanted to form in her throat, and said, “Because I’m out after quiet hours.”

“Oh, that.”

She looked up, and he shook his head. “I think I can let this one slide. It’s been a weird day.”

Exhaling a sigh of relief, she nodded. “It really has.”

He glanced around the room and asked, “Want to head back with me, or are you plannin’ to stick around here for a bit?”

She was so exhausted, she yawned and shook her head. “I think I’m going to head to bed, but I think I might need some help getting up.”

Quill stood and held out his hands to her. She took them, and a few seconds later she was standing, facing him. For some reason, she couldn’t let go of his hands, and he didn’t try to make her. The woman who hated being touched looked down where their hands were joined and suddenly wanted something that made absolutely no sense.

“Selena?”

She looked up and met his gaze. It was startling to be so close to him. In the month they’d known each other, she’d never really noticed how vividly green his eyes were. They were beautiful. Beautiful and kind. That kindness was what loosened her tongue to say, “I need something, and I need you to know it’s…it’s not something I’d normally ask for.”

“What is it?”

She chewed at her bottom lip for a few seconds trying to summon the courage to ask, and finally got out, “Can I have a hug?”

He didn’t hesitate at all. Her hands were released, but only so he could open his arms and let her walk into them. She wrapped her own around his torso, and a second later he enveloped her in a comforting embrace. No doubt, she smelled horrendous, but he gave no indication that he noticed. His hold was gentle. Not too tight, not too loose. Just right. It was the best hug she’d had in a very long time.

How long they stood like that was anyone’s guess. She lost track of time and just focused on how secure and solid he felt. How safe. He didn’t let go until she did.

They headed back down to the main part of the Facility. Her legs were still not wanting to cooperate and she was grateful that he said, “Just hold onto me, I’ll get you back.” She clung to his arm, finding stability and strength. He didn’t leave her side until he’d made sure she was safely back in her assigned apartment.

Preorder Now: The Future is Bright

You can buy my book!

Published March 22, 2024 by Malia

This one.  Right here.  In case you’re interested, here are just a few of the places it’s available.

Signed Copies

Ko-Fi This ships directly from me.

Sower Books Sower Books is the bookstore owned by my wonderful friend, Tory.  Her business is currently only online, but she’s working toward getting a physical store opened in Lincoln, NE later this year.

Paperback & E-book copies

Amazon: Paperback & Kindle

Barnes & Noble: Paperback & Nook

Thriftbooks: Paperback

Walmart: Paperback

I don’t have many reviews yet, but here’s the reviews currently on Goodreads.

I know that this book isn’t going to be everyone’s cup of tea, but I hope that you’ll enjoy it!

Not What I Expected

Published February 13, 2024 by Malia

Today’s the day.  The day my first novel goes on sale.

Except it hasn’t.

It’s all set to go.  Everything is ready.  It’s been approved to be published and the on sale date has been set for weeks.  Unfortunately, the self-publishing publisher that I’m going through hasn’t made it available for sale yet.

It’s frustrating and stressful.  Not exactly how I envisioned feeling the day I released my first book.  Last night I was so nervous and excited and anxious, and tonight I’m just sad. 

Fingers crossed it’ll sort itself out by tomorrow.

It’s okay to be scared.

Published February 10, 2024 by Malia

The other night Tom asked me what I would do if I wasn’t afraid.  To be honest, I can’t imagine existing without having a certain level of fear.  Fear and anxiety have been a large part of my life for as long as I can remember. 

I’m scared about my book.  I’m not scared that some people won’t like it.  I fully expect that some or even a lot of people won’t like it.  There is not a single book that every single person likes.  That’s just a fact. 

And that’s okay.

While I would love for my novel to be the shit, I am terrified that it is just shit.

And, even though, a few people have read it and responded positively, they’re also people that know me personally.  I fear that knowing me has caused them to read the book with kind eyes.

I am under no misguided belief that I’m a spectacular writer.  I’m average, at best. 

And that’s okay.

I love writing, and I have vastly improved over the last two years.  The book is the best thing I’ve ever written.  I finished it.  I am so incredibly proud of myself for that. 

While I can’t imagine living without fear, I am learning quite a bit about being afraid and still doing the thing (pretty sure that’s a paraphrase of something Neil Gaiman said).  If I gave into all my fear and anxiety right now, I’d pull the book.  I wouldn’t put it out into the world next week. 

I’m scared and I’m still gonna do the thing. 

5 Days

Published February 8, 2024 by Malia

The ebook version of Healing Notes comes out in 5 days!  I’m anxious and excited and terrified and thrilled and a whole pile of other conflicting emotions about this.  It kind of feels like I’m a mama bird and I’m about to kick baby bird out of the nest.  If you would like to hear me read an excerpt from chapter one, please click this link:

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPR3SyqjP/

Catching Up

Published February 4, 2024 by Malia

Well, hello there. It’s been a hot minute since I last posted, and quite a bit has happened since then. 

First, we adopted a 7-ish-month-old puppy at the beginning of June 2023.

The day we met.

As you can see, she was very malnourished when we met. She was a stray and had been at the shelter for about a week. 

I named her Muffin because she looked a bit like Muffin from Bluey, and I’m still very much in love with that show. I was unprepared for the Muffin level attitude that came with the name. It’s been a challenging several months, but I think things are improving. Raising a puppy has definitely been an experience.

Happier and healthier after 7 months in our family.
A rare moment where Krypto and Muffin actually sat together peacefully.

And now the really big news…

I wrote a book!!!

The e-book cover
The paperback cover

This book started as a silly little idea at the end of last November. I fell into a writing hyperfixation, and roughly three weeks and 100,000-ish words later I was typing The End. What I ended up with was a sweet romance that went to a much deeper place than I ever anticipated. It was an extremely emotionally taxing story to write, but I’m very proud of what I ended up with. 

It’s coming out on February 13, 2024. I’m incredibly nervous and excited to put this out into the world. 

And that’s the big news on my end. 

Clueless About Dating

Published January 10, 2023 by Malia

“What kind of dates do you guys go on?”

All eyes were on me. My social anxiety had kicked into overdrive. I was sitting in a restaurant I couldn’t afford, with a group of women I had little in common with. As the only non-mother at the table, I’d had nothing to add to the conversation for the first part of the meal. Then the topic of dates came up. We were all married, and as the conversation had gone around the table, I’d realized just how out of place I was. These women talked about going to nice restaurants, weekend trips to beautiful places, and other activities along those lines.

I stared at my incredibly bland lemon pasta (years later, I’m still baffled at how they managed to make what should’ve been a delicious dish have absolutely zero flavor). Even before we were married, Tom and I hadn’t gone on many dates. The majority of our time together was spent watching tv and talking. A little over a year into marriage, not much had changed. At the time, he was working a job with insane hours. Most days I only saw him when he’d come home late at night, collapse into bed for a few hours, and then get up and immediately go back to work. I was just glad for any time I got with him where he was awake. Going on dates wasn’t even a realistic option. Finally, I answered, “Sometimes we go to Sonic together, but with Tom’s work schedule we really don’t get to see each other that much.”

Have you ever felt an entire group completely deflate? Because that’s exactly what happened. There seemed to be this thought that I, as the most recently married, would have stories of incredibly romantic nights out. I had told them the truth, and in doing so, completely killed the conversation. Quickly, the talk shifted back to motherhood and the antics of their kids.

I’ve been thinking about that night quite a bit lately. Previously, I mentioned that I’m working on drafts for a novella. The first draft is fine, but as I’ve been reworking the story, I’ve come to realize that it has a very big flaw. This is a romance story, and I have written the most boring dates in the world. They don’t seem boring to me because they’re the kind of dates I’m comfortable with. However, I realize that not everyone else is a socially anxious homebody.

This means I’m now racking my brain, trying to figure out actual dates to send these characters on. I’m not even sure I know how to date. Back when everyone else was learning how to do those things, I was sucked into the world of purity culture. It didn’t exactly give me a solid understanding of how dating actually works.

And now I’ll go back to working on my draft and hopefully I can come up with a date for my characters that won’t put readers to sleep.