I’m Really Not Trying to be Rude

Published March 2, 2013 by Malia

Tonight is just one of those nights.  It’s been a super strange week, and now I find myself torn between wanting to just be left alone, and yet being so lonely I want to go be with my friends.  It’s a vicious circle.  Anyway, the week is just kind of ending on a meh note.  Plus, I have all these thoughts in my head and no one to tell them to, so this is going to be my dumping ground, so my thoughts don’t eat me up… (the you I mention isn’t directed towards any particular person, just people in general)

-Don’t compare yourself to me.  I’m not you and you aren’t me.  We’re different people with our own separate issues.  I’m not comforted when you jump in on every single thing I say to tell me how you have the exact same problem.

-I use self-depricating humor so that people will know that I know what’s wrong with me.  If I mention it first, then it takes the club away.  No one can beat me up about something I’ve chosen to mock about myself.

-If you can’t survive without being part of a couple, then you need to be single.  I’m not saying this to be mean.  You need to know who you are.  You need to know how to do things for yourself.

-I have the right words, and likely I have the right answers.  Putting them into practice, though, is so much harder.  I wish I was better at it.

-Yes, I spend to much time on the internet.  No, that’s probably not going to change anytime soon.

-Why is it that we always try to blame the bad stuff in our past on current ill behavior?  I’m just as bad about this as everyone else.  Truth is, we’ve all got bad stuff in our past, but we make the choice everyday as to how we’re going to handle life.  Yes, our past does color our viewpoint, and have bearing on how we behave, but that’s still not an excuse.

-I was informed today that I needed to start planning my funeral if I’m not going to eat right and start exercising.

-Why is there so much obsession over vampires, werewolves, and zombies?  I find Faeries to be much more interesting.

-Sometimes I worry that my mood is so dark, I’ll never see the light again.

 

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