I have been standing in my kitchen, washing dishes for the last 20 minutes, thinking about what I could say as we head into 2018. Did I come up with anything wise? Well, if you think that, “at least it’s easy to turn a 7 into an 8, so when I write 2017 on everything for the next two weeks and have to change it, it won’t be that difficult,” is wise, then sure, I’m super wise.
Actually, I’m feeling grateful. Things were bad a year ago. The boy was working a nightmare job. His only income was commission based, and he worked 12-14 hours every day, 7 days a week. To make matters worse, he rarely had sales, so more than once we went an entire month with him not having a paycheck. Our bank account more frequently had a number that was red with a little minus in front of it, than it had a number in black. It didn’t help that I had this constant mystery pain on the left side of my abdomen that no one could give me an answer about. The worse things got, the more frozen in depression and anxiety I got. I got to the point I was having trouble functioning as a human. Things were bad, and dark, and I spent most of my time feeling completely and utterly hopeless.
Now, it’s January 1, 2018, and the boy no longer works the job from hell. Our bank account, while not super healthy, hasn’t had bright red minus numbers in months. I still have my mystery pain, but hey, two out of three bad things aren’t bad anymore.
So, here’s to 2018. Here’s to starting a year with a bit of hope and a lot less fear.